Saturday, February 24, 2024

On Power

 

During a constitutional law lecture by Prof Shad over a topic that I can no longer recall I remembered as a closing remark of the day’s lecture he repeated the oft referred to cautionary quote on power: Power is like wine. It goes to the head. Or something to that effect in that Indian twang of his.

The lecture was probably about powers and role of the YDPA (Yang DiPertuan Agong) in the government machinery. The quote seems fitting there. I think so. Far from being an absolute High (not that one) King of Malaysia he is bound by the Constitution to act upon advice, most of the time.  

I’ve never had and never will drink wine (I prefer sirap ais) for obvious reasons but I can surmise its meaning in relation to Power. Unlike sirap, once you have a taste of it, it is hard to let go. Calix meus inebrians indeed. You just want to keep on ‘’drinking’’.

The story of Power is as old as time and will continue so long as Man walks upon this Earth. Gilgamesh was a tyrant until Enkidu came out of the wilderness to knock some sense into him (The scribe who scratched the story on clay tablets thousands of years ago was probably shitting on his boss or his paramount ruler) just as much as Madey was until Bang Non came into the picture to do the same or rather until Bang Non turned on him.

History taught us countless of times the dangers of succumbing to the allure of Power that there is scarcely a need to name too many names. You know them. You have heard of them. Yet there are those who naturally gravitate towards Power and its accumulation despite all the warnings. These would be drunks. For them Power is about what you can do with it, not what you must not do with it. It is the sheer potentiality of Power that drives them. They are like a kid with a magnifying glass having discovered what concentrated sunlight can do to ants and anything flammable. You often see them as macais hanging around politicians before they too rose to the top of the dunghill to join the ranks of the smooth talkers, the wily and the bent (Re: Mat Jargon).

Then there are people like Stan Lee who preached the Tao of Peter Parker. That with great Power comes great Responsibility. How apt. It is because Power is a great responsibility that it should be split into pieces, not concentrated upon one person or body alone like the belief of the Romans of the early republican era. Ultimate Power should be broken up into pieces, into the two Consuls, the Senate and other public offices. Not only to avoid the emergence of tyranny, not out of jealousy but also so that each of us should know that we to certain extent, hold Power over our own fate. That there should be check and balance to Power. That having Power means the duty to be responsible to the fate those around and under us until that Power is passed on, or surrendered or Death takes us. The would be drunks often forget this fact. Most of us do. I don’t blame you. I don't blame them. Their cup makes them drunk. Just like it did to the Romans who exchanged their republic with an empire under Augustus Caesar (Princeps my ass!). Power. Ah, Power. Ever so alluring. Forever corrupting

Always we are of two minds. As much as we have the potential to be good, we have the same potential to be evil. Good and evil is in our choice every day but good is often the harder of the two choices. But Power makes the line between Good and Evil blurry. It makes Evil the convenient choice, the seemingly good choice. A teacher of mine once told me, doing good takes times. How true that is. Far easier to surrender to our tyrannical instincts of because-i-am-the-boss rather than to work at being a wise and just leader. Easier to keep silent and plod on mindlessly compared to stopping to admit that we are lost and to take bearings of our direction before trying again. 

That could be the cause. We do not want to wait. We think we have better things to do than wait in this day and age of instant things. We want it easy. We would rather post bullshit and phony pictures of our so called life on social media for the likes than to attend to the dangers of power and it attendant responsibilities as a practitioner. We want it easy. We fooled ourselves into thinking that it is easy. 

Maybe it is too much to expect one who has held power to return to his or her plow like Lucius Quinticus Cincinnatus, or even willingly share power in the name of farming out the responsibility like Marcus Aurelius did but a tall hope that would be. When Power had sunk its talons into you, there is no letting go or sharing willingly. Just look at Madey. Just look at Bang Non. Power is all consuming. 

Perhaps it is the way of the world. That for all good that we intended to do in the beginning, we all surrender to our baser desires and wants in the end because of Power. That we would rather be the hand that hold the whip rather than the hand that mends. That we would rather remain the fool wearing a paper crown than toil like the others because Power has inflated our ego to grotesque proportions.

Ah, Power. Never have I asked for you and now, I wash my hands of you. 



Thursday, February 15, 2024

On Memory and Forgetfulness

 

I cannot remember who or where I heard/read it but it was said that Man is the only being that thinks in three modes, the past, the future and the present. Ruminants only think in the present. When there is predator lurking in the shadows a ruminant would flee. When it is safe again, it would continue grazing. All thoughts of danger forgotten. Only chewing and more chewing of cud. On the other hand Man would see danger in the past, the present and the future. We are on the look out for danger constantly from past, present and the future. This is especially true when you are a practitioner. You can’t help it. It is what you are trained for. But, the line between vigilance and mere worry is a thin one and the price is anxiety and/or hypertension.

We rush for the future but often we look back in the past hoping to not repeat the same mistakes, to avoid the hole we fell in once but in doing so we are blind of what is in front of us right now. Our children wanting our attention, maybe a bedtime story or two, a walk in the park. Our wives wanting no more than to hold hands, a hug (I think. Who knows what a woman wants, really) Our aging parents needing nothing more than our company. Our beat-up body wanting rest. Our tired minds begging for some activity other than work. We are prisoners of thoughts and worries of the future.

Ah, to hell with the future. The future is yet to be written, all we have is the present to live in, in preparation for the future. We often forget that. I often forget that. I write now not about the present or the future but of the past. About memories both good and bad. About the irony of remembering (for me at least).

I’ve been working my way through The Liar’s Club, A memoir by Mary Karr, poet, essayist and memoirist. Like most books I read, I came upon it entirely by accident while trawling through old yellowing books at my local Books for Better World. Wasn’t really looking for it but I knew of Mary Karr previously when I picked up Lit (by accident), also by her at The Curve’s Borders bargain bin almost a year earlier. Lit was such a blast to read so when I saw The Liars Club sitting there with its cover coming off, I had to get it. While Lit was about Mary’s attempts to get herself published, her marriage and its dissolution, her single motherhood and her battle with the bottle and her final grudging acceptance of Catholicism. The Liar Clubs was about Mary as a little girl growing up in Texas witnessing her parent’s slow drift and eventual separation and her mother’s gradual descent into alcoholism. Reading that, it made perfect sense. There was a morbid symmetry on why Mary turned out the way she did in Lit.

Having been more than halfway through The Liar’s Club reinforces my suspicion that bad, traumatic memories can be as sharp as knives and cuts just as real. Sometimes there is no helping it. They keep on replaying in your head no matter what you do until time and space (and maybe some help) wash them away. All we can do is learn from it and try, try to remind ourselves that it is in the past and not let it be the chain holding us back. We try. Sometimes we succeed. Sometimes we do not.

There are those who say that the trauma and pain you had suffered can be harnessed to drive you. Mary Karr certainly did. For the rest of us? Maybe. They say the same thing about anger being a great driving force. I have my doubts. One sure thing I know about anger is that it is tiring. But that is just me. I could be wrong. Maybe it is all about perspective, on how we choose to frame things, memories included.

Memories too can be our soothing balm, a warming presence deep within us when all seems cold, when you are at the lowest. Thinking of them reminds us for a brief moment that it is not all bad. That things have been okay once and will be okay again. Things like the feeling when we took our first bicycle ride with the training wheels off, listening to our grandfather’s jokes or the memory of our grandmother in her kitchen realm serving up dishes that fed generations, our day at the beach, our first date with our significant other, the memory of a teacher encouraging you to keep on reading, going on the stage for that school award, our goofy pet cat being stuck and finally un-stuck from the drain two sizes too small for him or a simple family dinner where all family members are present and where life was simpler.

Maybe that is why when we listen to tunes from our days of youth, we can to certain extent remember how it feels during those days. Maybe the heart remembers what the head can forget.

Memories can make or break you as a person but as powerful we would like to think it to be, it is at the same time fragile. Liable to be forgotten. Maybe due to old age or just plain passage of time where those who were there and remember are long dead. Then comes the question: Is forgetfulness a gift or a curse upon the living? The lawyer in me whispers: it depends (diam lah) but the vanilla old me does not really believe that to be the truth. I’ve seen what dementia had done to my grandmother before she passed away. From asking for my name and when I am to have children despite having my wife and two boys in tow every time and to constantly ask my mother to prepare lunch or dinner for my long dead Grandfather and yet, not once she ever forgot to ask if I have had my meal. Even as old age take you, some things you remember. Heartbreaking? To me to those who was there, certainly but to her?

Likewise with my late Grandfather (on my father’s side) who was a former copper. My uncles and aunts told me once that during his service despite his modest rank he was the go to person for PO’s (Prosecuting Officers) when it comes to criminal law. Towards the end of his life he was bedridden with the attendant tubes and bags, barely lucid. No longer recognizing anyone. When I came to visit after a plea in mitigation at the nearby state court (some suitor fighting at a coffee shop for his lady love’s honour. Accused family begged to differ. The lady was a known two-timer. The only time I was asked by the family to pray for maximum fine from court). I thought my grandfather could use a bit of conversation with only my aunt to talk to and so I told him I had just attended a matter that falls under Section 159 of the Penal Code, talked to him about the case. ‘’Tuk ingat tak Seksyen 159?’’ I asked him remembering what my uncles and aunts told me before. ‘’Gaduh kecil (affray)’’ he slowly answered.

When your body is no longer as it was used to be and all that fire within is gone all that is left to you would be your thoughts and memories. To swim in both the currents of past and the present at the same time, is that really a bad thing? I don’t know.

Sometimes I have problem remembering things I want to remember without reminders in my calendar (anniversaries, birthdays and school holidays, that damn speech or line of arguments) and yet the scary, embarrassing, painful, dumb shit I really want to forget remains stubbornly lodged in my head and I don’t even know why. Is that a human thing or is it just me? From my reading and/or listening to interviews of prominent judges and practitioners, most of them have prodigious memories. If I ever have the opportunity to talk to some of them I’d ask, do they have the same problem like mine; Forgetting what I was meant to remember and to remember things I’d rather forget?


Friday, February 2, 2024

Ter-sebut


Sebelum ada sistem E-Review, semua pengurusan kes dijalankan secara fizikal tak kira kes jenayah atau kes sivil. Jadi mahkamah-mahkamah termasuklah Mahkamah Rayuan dan Mahkamah Persekutuan jauh lebih riuh daripada sekarang ini dengan peguam-peguam ke sana ke mari, duduk menunggu diluar kamar pengurusan kes atau bilik Mahkamah. Ada yang tunggu berjam hanya untuk menghadiri pengurusan kes tak sampai 5 minit. Kalau mahkamah dalam negeri dan dalam mukim kau tak apa lagi. Yang jadi masalah bila kes kau di luar mukim kau beramal sebagai contoh, kau beramal di luar Lembah Klang dan kau ada pengurusan di Istana Kehakiman. Memandu atau naik kapal terbang semata-mata untuk beritahu penolong pendaftar yang kau dah failkan segala dokumen pra-perbicaraan adalah tidak berbaloi. Sangat tidak berbaloi dari segi kos dan masa kau cari tiket kapal terbang atau memandu berjam-jam.

Satu amalan yang diterimapakai dikalangan peguam dan sistem perundangan adalah bila ada kes di luar kawasan untuk minta peguam dalam mukim untuk hadir ke mahkamah bagi pihaknya. Amalan ini disebut sebagai Menyebut Bagi Pihak atau dalam Bahasa Inggerisnya, Mention on Behalf (MOB). Fahri ada tulis dengan panjang lebar berkenaan sejarah amalan MOB ini dalam buku beliau, The Malaysian Guide to Advocacy (Ya, ini adalah iklan). Di Annexure 2 tak silap aku.

Kalau ikut cerita old timer, MOB ini dahulu satu servis tak berbayar, satu bentuk mutual aid dikalangan pengamal. Bila aku mula beramal yang aku tahu MOB ini berbayar melainkan kau buat bagi lawan kau dalam kes atau untuk kawan-kawan rapat. Aku cuma tahu MOB itu berbayar kerana MOB itu punca pendapatan utama aku. Kadar bayaran itu pun mula-mula aku main letak aja. Congak kos minyak, tol dan penat. Bila kau freshly called to the Bar, tak ada nama, tak ada kes tapi ada tanggungan. MOB la jawab nya. Jadi bahan belasahan untuk warga Kehakiman umpama Kevin Costner menahan peluru untuk Whitney Houston.

Aku ingat lagi bila pertama kali MOB di Istana Kehakiman. Waktu itu aku tak tahu berapa rate untuk hadir ke Istana Kehakiman jadi aku caj lebih kurang RM 150.00 (Istana Kehakiman kot!), seingat aku lah. Instructing lawyer (yang mewakili Perayu) punya instruction pula hanyalah emel pendek yang berbunyi: Please obtain a new appeal date. Aku pun okay kan sahaja dalam hati. Duit punya pasal, tak pikir panjang. Lagipun itu bukan kali pertama terima instruction one-line sebegitu dari instructing lawyer dan seterusnya lunyai dihambur Hakim atau Majistret. Tapi itu kali pertama dalam instruction sebegitu bagi kes di Istana Kehakiman. Tapi masih juga aku minta kertas kausa dan dokumen-dokumen berkaitan di emel kepada aku, just in case.

Pada waktu itu, kali terakhir aku ke dalam salah satu bilik Mahkamah di Istana Kehakiman adalah pada waktu lawatan sambil belajar waktu sebelum betul-betul buat Degree. Aku datang nak tengok hujahan berbalas hujahan, the bloodsport where the both opponents would pummel each other (verbally) until the judge would signal for the parties would disengage and a ruling made whereupon the Victor would howl in triumph (dalam hati). Tapi takde, cuma ada sesi taklimat dari pegawai Istana Kehakiman. Potong stim betul.

Pagi hari jadi itu aku memang datang paling awal ke Istana Kehakiman, sarapan pun tak. Resah pun ya, teruja pun ya. Tapi mostly rasa nak pitam. Baru pagi itu realiti sebenar apa yang aku bakal buat sampai ke otak aku. Aku datang dengan bersedia untuk kena tibai di Mahkamah Terbuka tapi bila fikir balik, pagi itu aku akan kena tibai dengan 3 hakim. Waktu itu segala benda dalam badan yang boleh dirembes, diteran keluar dari badan terasa nak keluar. Panik sekejap. Sebelum masuk ke bilik Mahkamah, aku telefon semula instructing solicitor minta butiran penting rayuan. Dia akhirnya bagi butiran kes (aku dah minta lama dah) tapi memang tak cukup untuk aku bawa rayuan kalau perlu.

Bawa rayuan. Kecut perut aku bila fikirkan. Apa la aku tau tentang bawa rayuan di Istana Kehakiman. Aku cuba call mana-mana peguam senior yang aku kenal untuk mintak last minute pointer nak kendalikan soalan-soalan hakim peringkat Rayuan sebegini. Clutching at straws lah pendek kata. Yang jawab panggilan telefon cuma seorang dan itupun dia cakap dia tak pernah sampai Mahkamah Rayuan jadi memang tak tahu apa langsung. Dari resah jadi redha. Sarung jubah dan buka pintu bilik Mahkamah.

Bila masuk ke bilik Mahkamah terus aku ternampak para peguam beratur depan satu komputer sebelah meja Polis Mahkamah. Ramai peguam berkeliaran, berbual. Boleh nampak di situ ada dua jenis peguam. Yang sibuk menelaah bundle masing-masing kebanyakkannya yang muda-muda. Yang lebih senior sibuk berbual dengan rakan-rakan yang sama usia. Pegi jumpa Pendaftar dulu (masa tu aku ingat dia Jurubahasa) bagi nombor rayuan. Dia bagi sekeping kertas ada nama Hakim-hakim yang menjadi panel pagi itu dan suruh aku daftar kehadiran sambil tunjuk kepada komputer yang ada ramai peguam beratur didepannya.

Selesai daftar nama aku duduk di tempat paling dekat dengan pintu, paling belakang sekali. Kalau kelaut MOBnya nak lari senang. Gitulah agaknya mind bawah sedar aku berfikir. Nasib baik kes-kes lain dipanggil dulu. Seingat aku kes aku pada pagi itu adalah kes ke empat dalam senarai. Rupanya pagi itu rayuan yang ada permintaan untuk adjourn akan di dengar terlebih dahulu. Aku perhatikan satu persatu kes yang dibawa, lenggok bahasa dan cara peguam pujuk panel, ambik nota sambil menunggu. Kes-kes yang berjalan semua ada alasan kukuh untuk adjournment tapi bukan kes aku. Aku tak ingat apa alasan yang instructing solicitor bagi. Yang aku betul-betul ingat alasan dia merapu.

Bila nombor kes dipanggil dan aku bingkas berdiri. Aku tak tahu kalau kau pernah main game CRPG point and click berjudul Diablo dalam game tersebut ada satu boss level nama dia The Butcher. Bila kau masuk ke dalam sarang dia yang penuh dengan bangkai dan mayat mereka yang disembelih, kata-kata sambutan dia pada kau adalah: Ahh! Fresh Meat!. Itu yang aku boleh nampak dari riak wajah panel pada waktu itu. Semua senyum sinis tengok aku.

Aku ingat Yang Arif Hakim yang chair adalah lelaki, Melayu, bercermin mata, aku lupa nama dia dan ahli panel lain. Perkenal diri seperti biasa kemudian maklumkan pada mahkamah bahawa perayu pohon adjournment untuk rayuan. Saat itu hilang segala gemuruh dan takut. Tau tau je aku sedang berada dalam Zen state. Zen state bagi aku adalah titik tengah di antara mengantuk dan sedar, di antara gugup teruk dan terlebih yakin. Perasaan kau semuanya diketepikan, disimpan dalam peti. Bila aku dalam Zen state semua benda yang tak ada penting akan dimute, ditolak ketepi, dan tutur kata aku akan keluar sebutir-sebutir tanpa gagap atau mumbling. Yang ada cuma aku dan perkara yang aku nak kerjakan itu. Banyak kali cuba untuk replicate kembali keadaan untuk buat aku masuk kembali dalam Zen state tapi tak selalu berjaya. Satu yang aku perasan adalah aku masuk dalam Zen state lebih mudah bila aku dapat tidur yang cukup dan tak makan apa-apa pada hari bicara/pendengaran dan bila aku ada Chronology of Case ditangan. Tanya lah apa pun, semua aku boleh jawab.

Aku tak ingat sepenuhnya apa panel tanya pada aku. Yang aku ingat panel tak bertanya alasan untuk adjournment. Sekali pun tak. Aku rasa panel memang dah tau kenapa tapi saja nak bergurau kasar dengan aku. Fresh meat kan. Panel dok tanya pasal fakta kes pada aku. Tanya mana Responden (respondent tak datang, aku tak ingat kenapa). Aku jawab setakat mana yang instructing lawyer beritahu aku sambil cakap dengan cara paling hormat bahawa aku bukan orang sesuai untuk jawab semua soalan. But you are here aren’t you? When you appear in court you are the counsel for the case for the day, you are deemed to know all there is to know about the case, kata chair pada aku. Setepek aku kena. Aku angguk setuju sebelum tunjuk dekat dia email sekeping yang aku ada. Yang Arif, I really wish I could help Yang Arif but unfortunately this is the only document that was provided to me by the instructing solicitor despite my requests for more documents (memang betul pun. Aku telefon dan emel pejabat dia banyak kali tapi staff dia layan tak layan je. Bila pagi hari MOB baru betul-betul dia bagi aku brief important facts). Panel tak pedulik, berganti-ganti tanya aku pasal fakta kes sampai last sekali bila chair tanya aku berkenaan satu fakta kes yang aku tak sure, aku balas: Yang Arif, I fear I am ill equipped to tackle Yang Arif’s insightful questions. I humbly seek an adjournment for the matter so that the Appellant’s counsel could better tackle your questions. Chair bagi aku senyuman sinis terakhir pastu suruh Pendaftar bagi tarikh baru. Dapat tarikh baru, ucap terima kasih dan terus duduk. Panel terus mengalih perhatian kepada mangsa seterusnya.

Aku tak sedar bila aku keluar dari Zen state. Yang aku tau aku rasa penat sepenat-penatnya. Lunyai beb. Bila aku keluar dari bilik Mahkamah dan call pejabat instructing lawyer pun dari plan nak marah dia pun kesudahannya aku cakap lembut tapi, aku tetap mintak extra RM 150 dari dia. Elaun kena tibai, aku cakap kat dia. Dia okay kan je. Tamat je panggilan terus emel outcome dan arahan Mahkamah bersama butiran perbankan aku.

Bila hilang sikit penat baru terfikir, aku kena tibai dengan 3 hakim dan aku selamat dan dapat apa yang diarahkan untuk pohon dari Mahkamah. Aku berjalan ke kereta dengan keyakinan membuak-buak. If I can do this, I can do anything, aku ingat aku ulang-ulang dalam kepala. Masa itu kalau kena tembak pun aku rasa boleh tepis peluru. Bila dah tua sikit ini baru lah terfikir betapa kurang bijaknya aku ambik brief tanpa tau fakta penuh, walaupun hanya kes MOB.

Petang yang sama RM 300 masuk dalam akaun aku. Sejak dari hari itu firma yang sama banyak bagi aku kerja MOB (termasuklah mintak adjournment appeal) di Istana Kehakiman hinggalah sistem E-Review digunapakai. Tak lama lepas hari tersebut aku dapat tahu rupanya standard rate MOB di Istana Kehakiman adalah sekitar RM 300 dan itu adalah caj aku selagi mana ada MOB di Istana Kehakiman. Sejak hari itu juga kalau ada yang mintak aku MOB aku akan berkeras minta segala dokumen dan kertas kausa berkaitan di emel pada aku. Sekurang-kurangnya kalau kena hentam dengan Majistret/Hakim/Yang Arif Hakim tahu apa nak di jawab. Kalau kecundang sekalipun sekurang-kurangnya melawan.

Bila kau buat kerja-kerja MOB ini bagi aku dia adalah sesi practice run bagi kau untuk menyediakan mental dan jiwa kau untuk perbicaraan penuh, pendengaran rayuan. Macam peninju berlatih dengan menumbuk beg pasir. Cuma dalam analogi ini, kau bukan peninju, kau adalah beg pasir. Tak best bagi sesetengah orang tapi bagi aku untuk salah satu cara untuk belajar memperbaiki tumbukan dan melatih daya tahan adalah untuk menerima tumbukan demi tumbukan sampai kau tahu macam mana nak roll with the punch, sampai kau tau macam mana nak bagi tumbukan.

Kata Pyotr Kropotkin, Mutual Aid is a factor in evolution, dan aku setuju. Bila selalu dihentam secukupnya buat kerja-kerja MOB untuk rakan pengamal samada yang tak dikenali atau kawan-kawan mau tak mahu kau akan jadi biasa dan makin berani berurusan dengan Mahkamah terbuka. Kulit kau makin tebal. Hati kau makin keras. Bila disergah Hakim pun kau dah tak melatah dan tahu nak jawab apa. Itu yang akan buat kau berkembang dan makin maju sebagai seorang pengamal. Dahulunya aku buat kerja-kerja MOB sebab nak makan. Tak buat tak makan. Sekarang aku buat sebab rindu merayap ke mahkamah sana sini.

Mungkin sekarang susah untuk ke Mahkamah bagi pendengaran ke apa tapi itu bukan alasan untuk takut-takut merebut peluang untuk appear di Mahkamah Terbuka. Susah beb nak dapat peluang sekarang. Semua benda online. Semuanya melalui Zoom, melalui pertukaran emel, melalui E-review. Jangan tunggu boss/partner/senior suruh baru nak ke Mahkamah. Kau tanya direct terus, mintak, rayu kalau perlu. Berbunga-bunga hati bos/partner/senior ada junior yang bersemangat macam kau. Kalau beramal/Membuat latihan dalam kamar di firma yang mengamal undang-undang jenayah memang kebanyakkan masa akan ke Mahkamah. Kalau beramal/Membuat latihan dalam kamar di firma yang mengamal praktis debt recovery pula lagi best. Sejak jumlah minimum hutang untuk tindakan kebankrapan dinaikkan kepada RM 100,000.00 banyak tindakan pelaksanaan penghakiman dibuat melalui Saman Penghutang Penghakiman yang memerlukan kau bertanyakan siri soalan kepada si Penghutang Penghakiman untuk menentukan kemampuannya untuk melangsaikan hutang penghakiman. Di situ adalah satu peluang untuk mengasah kemahiran bertanya soalan yang menjadi tunjang seorang pengamal. Pokoknya kalau ada peluang ke Mahkamah, ambik.

Lagi satu yang membuatkan seronok buat kerja-kerja MOB ini adalah kau akan dapat jumpa bermacam-macam jenis peguam dan pegawai Mahkamah dengan ragam masing-masing. Ada yang cukup anti dengan peguam MOB, ada yang sangat membantu dan tenang sebab dia tau bukan salah peguam MOB kalau instructing solicitor tak ikut arahan Mahkamah Sebelum ini. Paling seronok kalau MOB bila peguam pihak satu lagi adalah peguam senior. Memang rancak bercerita kalau kau tanya dia soalan sambil tunggu kes dipanggil tu. Kadang-kadang kes dah selesai pun dia boleh sambung balik bercerita. Selalunya mereka akan bercerita mengenai kisah-kisah perang mereka, kes-kes yang mereka pernah buat dahulu yang syiok didengar dan ambil pengajaran. Ada seorang peguam senior perempuan berbangsa Cina yang aku dah lupa nama dia bercerita tentang waktu dia di bomoh sampai tak boleh nak bawa Rayuan di Mahkamah Rayuan. Hakim bila bercakap tak keluar suara. Hanya bunyi air terjun terus menerus. Bila dia sendiri cuba buka mulut dan bercakap pun sama. Seram shit.

Lawyer senior juga selalunya bermurah hati dengan nasihat-nasihat terutamanya berkenaan strategi dan taktik untuk menangani kes-kes perbicaraan. Mereka tak kisah pun kalau kau buka buku dan ambil nota, bahkan lagi dia suka. Lagi kau banyak bertanya lagi dia suka. Siapa kata belajar kena berkursus, kena masuk kelas?

Tapi harus diingat, ini semua sebelum E-Review digunapakai di Istana Kehakiman. Sekarang lain. Sangat lain. Banyak masa dihabiskan dibelakang skrin bagi kes-kes sivil.

Bagi aku mengamal ini bila makin lama semakin berkurangan interaksi bersemuka sesama manusia itu makin hilang erti mengamal undang-undang itu sendiri. Macam mana nak timbul semangat kekitaan (camaraderie) bila berjumpa atas talian sahaja. Bila kehadiran ke Mahkamah secara fizikal itu pun dah dikurangkan (kecuali kes jenayah) adakah masih relevan untuk tahu adab dalam Mahkamah. Peguam litigation jenis apa tak ke Mahkamah? Adakah lagi perlu bangunan Mahkamah itu sendiri? Bila dibatasi skrin komputer atau peranti, kepentingan dan keseriusan perjalanan proses Mahkamah itu sendiri hilang. Apa beza peguam dengan operator dron bila kedua-duanya menghabiskan masa belakang skrin?

Aku tak tahu. Mungkin ini hanya rungutan aku seorang yang lebih suka menghadap berdepan tanpa skrin memisahkan aku dengan hakim dan lawan.

Lain perasaan dia bila kau boleh nampak tanpa batasan skrin muka lawan tahan kerut bila nampak saksi dia koyak dalam kandang saksi atau mata hakim yang buntang bila dengar saksi bagi jawapan merapu bagi soalan direct. Banyak benda yang lost in transmission bila segalanya secara atas talian. Tapi itulah kehidupan. Tak ada penyelesaian sempurna, cuma ada stopgap measure yang menerbitkan seribu satu lagi masalah.

Iya sejak pengenalan sistem E-Review dah kurang permintaan untuk kerja-kerja MOB. Jauh berkurangan. Kurang tapi bukan pupus terus. Akan ada satu hari bila mana Mahkamah secara tiba-tiba menetapkan tarikh pendengaran atau sebutan secara fizikal dan kau ada kes lain pada tarikh tersebut dan tak ada anak buah yang boleh hadir bagi pihak kau, tak mengapa. Aku ada. Kalau kau nak mintak adjournment tapi tak nak mengadap hakim atau panel, atau tak larat kena bebel secara fizikal dengan hakim atas apa sebab apa sekalipun, aku ada. Selagi di Lembah Klang, aku sentiasa ada.

I’m no Kevin Costner but will take that metaphorical bullet (or bullets) for you just the same.

~Andd aaiiiiiiiiiieeiiiiiiii will alwayys emmoobee for youuuuuhuuhuuuueaaaaah (jerit macam mendiang Whitney Houston)


Tuesday, January 16, 2024

So that I Will remember

 

I have misplaced my glasses many times ever since I needed one. I have misplaced them so many times in a week that my wife begged with me to get one of those neck strap thing for my glasses as to do way with my almost daily questions as to whether she had seen my glasses. But pride prevailed. Though my body ached all over in the morning and rare strands of white are slowly creeping into my black head of hair and I have to spend some time looking for my glasses everyday, I am adamant that I am not of that age bracket. Hell no. Until the day I am offered senior discounts, I will maintain the delusion of time having no mastery over me.

Like my glasses, same goes with things that I encounter. I have learned that what is not written down will be lost or forgotten. That saying of Madey about Malays came to mind. The practice of stories, traditions, laws and customs being passed down from orally from one generation to another is dying out. One might say that written records have somewhat robbed the magic out of oral story telling aspect of memory and records but such is the way of the world. One things perishes and another will take its place. Now, physical books are slowly being complemented with e-books and yet we are still not a society of readers, but that is a matter for another day. Anyhow, point is, write it down or you are liable to forget the damned thing you are supposed to remember. What you jot down, you can see. What you can see, you can retain better in your mind.

I thought that my love of typing things (and making things up) to be no more than a youthful indulgence, a passing fad for many blogs of my contemporary during university days have lain fallow after the late 2010s when most of us joined the working world but time showed otherwise. I am now required to treat writing as an occupational hazard though it be in terse legalese and of the truth and nothing but the truth. Maybe, when I can carve out the time I will be able to type/make things up again for fun (and for a bit of profit). Not in court of course and not here, in this blog.

Unlike its many predecessors lost in the Void, the purpose of this blog is for me to write down what I have discovered throughout my practice as long as I am in practice. More or less- lah. If I do write about family and the human things which I will from time to time it is because I wanted to remind myself the reason why I am in legal practice to begin with. So bear with me.

Another reason I started this blog also is because some time ago in the course of a conversation that began in a clear late afternoon and ended in the dim twilight where you can barely see each other’s face in the murk, a guru of mine suggested to me to get typing again as the means to let off the excess angst and steam of litigation practice in a healthy way. It works, to certain extent.

While I cuss and indulge in profanities (which is one way of looking at it) in my stuff here from time to time, I choose to look at it as putting extra emphasis to certain points I am making. I am after all letting some steam and trying to record things at the same time.

I write in both Malay and English because my Malay is mostly in bahasa pasar which could do with refinement and my English could do with an improvement in terms of clarity and quality. Maybe not King’s English material but something pleasant to the ears and eyes at the very least.

That got me thinking.

If King’s English is the yardstick of the correct and pure version of English then what is the Malay version of it? Agong’s Malay? If so which Agong? I mean we have words like Bajet which is the shameless phonetic copy of the word ‘’budget’’. The word Bajet was previously used by my schoolmates to refer to the act of being stingy with your lunch or goodies or what ever you have on hand.

Eg:

- Weh, sikit roti kau

-Tak boleh.

-Ek eleh, bajet betul kau ni

I’d like to think perhaps one of them have risen high in the world, into the Parliament itself even, to have made the word bajet on the lips of every politicians every year. That would be something.

Anyway, I hope this blog to be the online reference point for my future self as long as the servers are up and running. So that if my memory fails me earlier than expected, it would be a repository of my practicing life. Perhaps my sons would come across it one day, cackling and hooting in laughter at my discoveries and my many attempts to impose order to chaos that is my life as a practitioner.

If my conclusions are wrong, correct me. If you find it useful, good for you. Mine is about the basic stuff. Nothing fancy or in depth as I find most blogs or stuff written by older and more experienced lawyers. Mine is about the kind of things (not strictly about legal practice) you would be afraid to ask your boss or bosses for fear of being seen as less manly or not as bright as previously thought of. If you think what I write about is shit, then it is on you who are reading this to write something better and far more interesting.

In a way this blog is that neck strap thing, but for my practice (mainly). There are after all limits to my (many) delusions.


Friday, January 12, 2024

On Hope. Its abundance or (perceived) lack thereof.

 

Aku seorang yang pesimistik. Tapi itu tidak bermakna aku hanya nampak hari mendung kelabu sepanjang masa. Aku masih percaya lepas mendung, hujan atau ribut selagi ditakdirkan Matahari akan kembali keluar menyinari alam. Cuma aku kemana-mana dengan kebersediaan untuk menempuh hujan (baju cepat kering, beg dan sandal yang kalis air, payung.. Itu mengingatkan aku untuk beli payung baru. Payung lama dipinjam tak dipulang. Cilaka), kalau perlu. Aku adalah Bert bilamana sebahagian lain populasi dunia adalah Ernie yang girang tanpa risau dan aku perasan bahawa makin meningkat umur semakin grumpy aku dibuatnya. I mean is that even natural? To be expected?

Ok, aku mungkin conflatekan keadaan grumpy dengan pessimistic. Tapi pohon bertahan dengan aku.

Aku pernah terbaca satu temubual diantara penulis siri The Witcher, Andrzej Sapkowksi (sebut sekali dengan aku: Ann-jeyy Sap-kov-ski) dengan satu publikasi yang aku tidak ingat namanya. Bila ditanyakan apa yang beliau harapkan dari adaptasi Witcher di Netflix, Andrzej jawab: Life is, basically, fucking shit. Best to keep your expectations low. Maybe you’ll be pleasantly surprised.

Berdekah gelak aku baca jawapan Andrzej. It fits. Satu, Netflix memang dikenali dengan perangai menjahanamkan cerita bagus dengan agenda woke tak bertempatnya. Keduanya, dalam dunia The Witcher, watak utamanya Geralt of Rivia memang satu watak yang world weary, pesimis pun ya juga. Macam mana tak pesimis. Beliau adalah saki baki golongan mutan yang diberikan tugas murni untuk melawan raksasa-raksasa cerita rakyat Slavic tapi sayangnya, dicemuh dan dibenci golongan manusia yang dilindunginya itu. Magis pula dikuasai golongan tamak kuasa yang cuba mempengaruh raja dan permaisuri negeri-negeri yang selesa bergembira atas takhta masing-masing. Kaum bukan manusia penduduk asal tanah pula ditindas, dibunuh. Pada masa yang sama, nun di kejauhan di negeri Nilfgaard bibit-bibit perperangan sedang disemai (pada awal buku/game lah). Senang kata hidup rakyat kebanyakkan dalam dunia yang diperintah raja dan ahli magis tamak adalah poor, short and brutish. Kecuali Geralt dan rakan-rakan. Geralt dan rakan-rakan ada plot armour. Mungkin akan lunyai dibantai tapi takkan mati selagi belum tamat siri.  Tapi setebal mana pun plot armour Geralt, ianya tak tebal di bahagian hati. Disebalik gaya sinis dan tak berperasaan, Geralt ada sense of right and wrong. Ini jelas bila Geralt masih lagi mencari si Ciri walaupun Cintra dan istananya telah jatuh ke tangan tentera Nilfgard kalau ikutkan boleh sahaja dia lupakan segalanya atau beri alasan ; istana dah jatuh mesti Ciri dah mati dibunuh dan teruskan hidup memburu raksasa demi duit dan minuman dan perempuan. Tetapi tak. Geralt si rambut putih ini masih memasang harapan yang Ciri masih hidup.

Sama seperti watak John Stone yang dilakonkan oleh John Turturro dalam siri terhad HBO, The Night Of. Beliau adalah peguambela yang juga world weary, rutinnya adalah untuk singgah dari balai polis ke balai polis demi mendapat kes-kes tangkapan baru (touting). Pendek cerita, John adalah bottom feeder yang putus harapan dengan diri sendiri untuk buat kerja selain touting di balai-balai dan membuat kes-kes pengakuan bersalah hingga bila dituduh sebagai seorang red kerana percayakan penjenayah masih ada hak untuk diwakili peguam oleh polis yang sedang bertugas dia buat bodoh sahaja. Semangat beliau yang sebelum ini pudar dek selama ini bergelumang dengan penjenayah yang ingin dilepaskan atas sebab teknikaliti datang kembali bila berdepan dengan anak guam yang betul-betul tidak bersalah iaitu Naz, anak pemandu teksi yang dituduh membunuh seorang gadis di rumah gadis tersebut. John sudah keluar dari balai, bersedia untuk balik bila dia teringat pada Naz si pemuda nampak datang dari Timur Tengah sedang dalam tahanan system kehakiman jenayah Amerika pasca 9/11. Dia patah balik dan masuk semula ke balai kerana harapkan dia boleh make a difference untuk Naz.

Untuk kejelasan aku bukan world weary. Aku belum cukup lama mengenal dunia untuk ada perasaan sedemikian rupa. Just plain weary and grumpy.  Ini bukan satu aduan. Cuma satu kenyataan fakta. Boleh jadi juga kerana aku menaip ini dengan keadaan tak cukup tidur. Aku perasan yang kau lebih cekal, lebih positif bila kau cukup tidur.

Kembali kepada Andrzej Sapkowski dan tanggapan beliau mengenai Netflix dan kehidupan. Aku setuju dengan pendapat beliau. Harapan boleh jadi tingkap-tingkap kepada kekecewaan tapi kalau kau tak buka tingkap, tak dapat udara segar. 

Fakta Andrej ada beri kebenaran untuk Netflix membuat adaptasi hasil kerja beliau menunjukkan Andrzej ada memasang harapan untuk satu adaptasi yang tulus dan mengikut tulisannya akan dihasilkan oleh Netflix. Sama ada Netflix berjaya atau tak, aku tak pasti.

Pokoknya, perlu ada harapan tapi tak boleh banyak sangat. Kerana bila banyak sangat takut kau lupa untuk berpijak pada bumi yang nyata. Tak ada harapan pula akan buat kau murung, rasa nak buat benda merepek yang mempunyai kesan muktamad. Jadi aku kira satu imbangan perlu dicapai di antara terlalu berharap dengan terus berhenti berharap. Jadi tingkap-tingkap itu perlu dikuak buka tapi jangan besar sangat. Nanti nyamuk masuk, takpun tempias hujan.

Itu pada aku lah. Aku mungkin salah.

Si stoic-stoic lama ada memberi buah fikiran berguna berkenaan harapan. Ada seorang aku tak ingat siapa yang kata unexpected blows from Fortune lands heavier, yang aku kira adalah cara lain untuk mengatakan bahawa adalah, expect the worst. Jauh lebih baik untuk menerima kejutan yang menyedapkan hati, yang buat kau tergelak, senyum melebar daripada meletakkan harapan tinggi yang bila tak jadi, tak tercapai membuatkan kau rasa kecewa tak sudah.

 

Boleh jadi juga meletakkan harapan pada perkara yang berada diluar kawalan kau pun boleh membuatkan kau kecewa atau mudah kecewa. Iyalah, bukan semua benda kau ada kawalan. Sebagai contoh siapa Mak Bapak kau, kaum kau, jodoh kau, negeri mana kau di lahirkan, keputusan kes kau, dekat mana dan bagaimana kau mati. Benda-benda macam tu memang luar kawalan kau. Benda yang kau boleh kawal; siapa kawan-kawan kau, apa kau makan pagi ini, berapa batang rokok kau hisap hari ini, macam mana kau membuat persediaan untuk kes kau, macam mana kau pilih untuk hidup dan lain-lain perkara. Tak banyak tapi cukup untuk bagi kau sense of control. Cukup untuk buat kau rasa bertanggungjawab atas hidup kau sendiri.

Harapan ini memang terang-terangan jatuh bawah senarai perkara yang kau boleh kawal. Kau tak boleh kawal Tuah, Takdir tapi kau boleh kawal kebergantungan emosi kau pada Tuah, Takdir atau apa-apa terma yang kau nak pakai.  

Nak pasang harapan boleh tapi harapan itu perlu disemat selepas usaha sehabis baik dan juga dengan persediaan andaian apa yang tak diharap itu tak menjadi. Tak guna pasang harapan kalau tak ada usaha. Kalau kau percaya, berdoa selepas segala usaha. Itu usaha terakhir. Itu senjata kau. Terutamanya sewaktu hujan.   

Akan sentiasa ada harapan selagi ada ujian sebagaimana akan sentiasa ada hujan selagi ada matahari terik di Malaysia ini. Itu adalah hukum alam. Kadang-kadang kau tempuh hujan keseorangan, mencicit berlari ke kereta. Kadang-kadang kau jalan selamba dalam hujan lebat sebab pada waktu itu tak ada apa yang boleh sakiti kau apatah lagi hujan lebat. Kadang-kadang bila tak dijangka ada yang hulur payung bersaiz jumbo pada kau ajak jalan tempuh hujan sama-sama ke kereta. Kadang-kadang ada juga yang gila dan ajak kau berlari main hujan sama-sama.

 

Jangan dilupa juga, lepas hujan lebat jugalah tumbuh mekar segala jenis tumbuhan. Termasuklah cendawan busut. 

Cendawan busut sedap kalau buat kari. 

 

Wednesday, January 3, 2024

Honesty

 

Diogenes si filusuf gelandangan pernah dikatakan berjalan-jalan di sekitar bandar Athens (tak silap aku lah) dengan membawa pelita pada waktu tengah hari buta dan menyuluh ke muka setiap orang yang dia jumpa. Bila ditanyakan kerja gila apa lagi yang sedang dibuat, beliau cuma membalas: Aku tengah mencari orang yang jujur.

 

Aku boleh bayangkan berapa banyak boo si Diogenes ni kena dengan jawapan sebegitu. Mungkin kena baling selipar pun ya jugak. Yelah, patutnya jujur itu factory setting kita tapi sebenarnya tidak. Umat manusia ni tak berapa pandai nak menilai kejujuran sebab default mode kita adalah untuk menipu dan buat cerita. Jadi kita semua sebenarnya nak sangat untuk percaya apa yang orang lain katakan tapi pada masa yang sama kita sangat berhati-hati sebab kita memang dilahirkan sebagai penipu. 


Satu benda yang aku perasan dan aku rasa kau pun perasan adalah cerita rakyat dan mitos selalu mengagung-agungkan si kaki putar. Prometheus, Loki, Sang Kancil. Kesemuanya kaki belit, trickster figure yang mana bila lawannya ditewaskan dengan helah/tipudaya kita pun bertepuk tangan sebab hero menang kerana menggunakan akal bergeliga.

 

Berapa banyak kali si Harimau kena tipu dengan Sang Kancil sampai kena belit dengan Tedung, bengkak bengkil kena sengat dengan tebuan tapi kita buat pengecualian bagi kes-kes ni sebagai penggunaan akal yang awsome. Tapi masa kecik-kecik dulu juga kita selalu dipesan mak bapak supaya sentiasa bercakap benar. Kena jujur. Jangan membohong. Siakap senohong ikan buntal ikan duri, bercakap bohong lama lama mencuri. Cerita rakyat cakap satu benda, mak bapak dan pepatah lama pulak cakap sebaliknya. Hairan kan? Bila kejujuran itu bukan default mode manusia, tak berapa nak menghairankan.

 

Liar Liar iaitu filem era 90’an yang dibintangi Jim Carey mempunyai sebagai premis utamanya stereotaip biasa peguam; tak boleh dipercayai, kaki putar dan lain-lain sebelum beliau akhirnya insaf dan cuba untuk bercakap benar demi tidak dipisahkan daripada anak lelakinya.

 

Side note: Dalam Mahkamah hanya saksi yang memberi keterangan yang akan mengangkat sumpah untuk berkata benar. Padahal Hakim dan peguam juga manusia macam para saksi yang mempunyai kebarangkalian sama untuk mempunyai definisi longgar tentang apa yang dimaksudkan dengan berkata benar. Itu kalau minda pesimistik aku yang berkata-kata lah. Ke sebenarnya sebab peguam-peguam dan Hakim itu umpama tukul dan andas (anvil) yang membentuk keterangan saksi hingga akhirnya betul salah, apa yang diterima sebagai kebenaran di dalam sesebuah kes itu diputuskan umpama pandai besi membentuk besi merah membara hingga akhirnya menjadi parang atau keris, sebab tu peguam dan Hakim tak perlu angkat sumpah.

Aku rasa lah.

 

Kembali ke Liar Liar, ok lah, walaupun ada tokok tambah Hollywood tapi itu tidak bermakna itu bukan anggapan sebenar orang awam. Pandangan awam selalunya adalah asal peguam je kaki putar, kaki tipu. Padahal dalam Practice and Etiquette Rules tu tanggungjawab pengamal untuk berlaku jujur dan berterus terang ada diulang-ulang sekurang-kurangnya empat (4) kali untuk bermacam situasi. Seolah-olah nak mengingatkan pengamal yang memang senang nak tergelincir dari landasan yang sepatutnya kalau pengamal dah mula cakap main sembur, tak kira betul atau tidak. Memang ada la pengamal yang kaki scam, kaki kencing ni tapi itu mungkin segmen kecil, tak mewakili kesemua pengamal yang lain. Mereka ni mungkin lupa pasal Practice & Etiquette Rules. Aku pun lupa dan terus lupa kalau bukan sebab jumpa yang mengingatkan.

 

Kejujuran ni kalau bukan peguam pun memang patut ada dalam diri setiap orang, memang dari kecil lagi mak bapak dah ajar tapi bila kau ada Sijil Amalan dan sarung suit hitam-putih kejujuran tu seumpama jadi optional tak kisahlah apa alasan yang kau ada. Itu pengamatan aku. Boleh jadi pengamatan aku sedikit sebanyak dicemari dengan tanggapan orang ramai lah. Boleh jadi juga aku terlalu banyak berurusan/bercampur dengan douchebags sampai kadang-kadang ada juga tertanya-tanya adakah aku juga seorang douchebag sebab aku tak pasti.

 

Anyway, nampak ada disconnect diantara realiti dan idea. Kejujuran dalam setiap perbuatan dan tindakan seorang peguam itu memang sentiasa ditekankan. Fair dealing and honesty and all that cal tapi, sejujurnya, siapa yang boleh betul-betul kata dia jujur dan kekal jujur pada setiap masa?

 

Aku bagi contoh mudah. Ingat bahawa sebagai pegawai Mahkamah kau ada tanggungjawab untuk memaklumkan Mahkamah kepada sebarang perubahan kepada undang-undang atau provisi yang kau ketahui (Rule 20, Practice and Etiquette Rules 1976). Berapa ramai peguam yang terjumpa akan satu kes terbaru yang mengikat Mahkamah dan tak berpihak pada hujahan kau akan membawa kes tersebut ke perhatian Mahkamah? Tambah pulak kalau kes tu tak sampai ke perhatian Mahkamah kau boleh menang. Aku pun tak berani nak cakap kalau aku dalam situasi tu apa yang akan aku buat sebab aku faham kadang-kadang keinginan nak menang tu membuak-buak.

 

Lagi satu contoh, kau nak membuat permohonan untuk injunksi tapi ada beberapa fakta material yang tak berpihak pada kau. Jadi kau tak sebut pun pasal fakta-fakta yang tidak berpihak pada kau itu. Alasannya, kau tak tipu, kau cuma tak beritau. Padahal kau tau Aturan 29 Kaedah 1(2A)(e) Kaedah-Kaedah Mahkamah 2012 ada cakap yang kau kena maklumkan pada mahkamah semua fakta yang mungkin membuatkan Mahkamah tidak membenarkan permohonan injunksi kau itu. Tapi kau buat senyap, tak beritahu sebab kau nak menang. Keji sungguh kau ini.

 

Itu kalau peguam lah.

 

Lagi satu contoh, yang ni untuk lelaki yang dah beristeri.

 

Tengah tengok movie dengan isteri. Cerita Bladerunner 2049. Sampai babak Ana de Armas di skrin isteri tanya dia cantik ke Ana de Armas lagi cantik? Aci potong jari kau akan cakap isteri kau lagi cantik (tak pun buat-buat tertido). Sebab jelas lagi bersuluh itu soalan perangkap, peluang untuk kau jaga hati isteri, untuk validate kedudukan dia dalam dimata kau (tolak tepi risiko tidur luar rumah kalau salah jawab). Tapi itu tak mengubah fakta yang kau tak beri jawapan sebenar, melainkan isteri kau memang lagi cantik dari Ana de Armas. Yelah, kau boleh agak apa akan jadi kalau kau bagi jawapan selain dari apa yang dia harapkan. Isteri kecik hati, tarik muka, merajuk nak dipujuk dan bermacam kebarangkalian lain yang boleh kau elak kalau kau bohong sunat. Semuanya demi menjaga keharmonian rumah tangga.

 Sebab tu kau takkan tanya dengan isteri kau Ryan Gosling handsome ke tak. Tak nak panjang cerita. 

 

Jadi kenapa kita tak berlaku jujur?

Mungkin memang ada dalam survival trait kita, telah dikodkan dalam otak cicak primitif kita untuk mengekalkan apa yang sedia ada dan kalau boleh untuk mendapatkan kelebihan supaya kebarangkalian kita dan spesis kita akan kekal hidup dan selamat. Kalau bercakap benar ada kebarangkalian apa yang kita ada akan berkurang tapi kalau kau pusing, tai chi, kencing mungkin kau boleh kekalkan apa yang kau ada atau boleh jadi juga apa yang kau ada tu akan bertambah. Jadi kenapa pulak kita nak berlaku jujur kalau menipu itu akan memberikan kau kelebihan? Adakah sebab kita ada akal? Dan akal itu mengenal baik dan buruk? Atau adakah itu hati nurani kita switched on? Boleh jadi. Aku pun tak tau. Aku main agak je ni.

 

Bila aku menulis pasal kejujuran ini aku sendiri makin lama makin keliru. Jujur, bohong jaga hati, harmoni. Tolak tepi religious injunction, nampak berlaku jujur itu nampaknya harus dan optional pada masa yang sama. Kalau kau cakap isteri kau lagi cantik dari (masukkan nama perempuan cantik disini) dia senyum padahal dia tau je kau tipu. Bila dia tanya ada perempuan lain ke tak dan kau cakap takde (sebenarnya ada) dia tau je kau bohong tapi kenapa reaksinya berbeza. Walhal, kedua-duanya tak betul. Nampak seperti kebenaran dan kejujuran tu ada banyak degree dia macam Masonic Lodge. Bohong kepada mahkamah satu kesalahan boleh kena penjara. Bohong sunat jaga hati isteri walaupun salah semua suami akan buat. Tipulah kalau kau pun tak buat. Semuanya sebahagian dari keadaan manusia atas Bumi sebab kita mahkluk yang hidup bermasyarakat. Mana tah tadi aku baca yang cakap lying is a social lubricant. But how much is too much? Again, the degrees of honesty.

 

Ke sebenarnya kita semua tak sanggup nak terima kebenaran. Kebenaran kan menyakitkan, membebaskan tapi menyakitkan. Sebab itu kita ajar anak-anak untuk bercakap benar tapi bila makin dewasa dan makin bergaul kita sedari bahawa masyarakat dengan norma dan political correctness dan segala maknenek alasan membuatkan bercakap benar itu nampak makin lama makin optional, tak kira lah apa alasan kau (jaga hati, bersopan santun, diplomatik, whatever).

 

Jadi bila difikirkan semula Diogenes bukanlah segila yang kita sangka. Ada point yang dia cuba sampaikan. Kalau tengah hari buta pun masih menyuluh mencari maknanya memang susah nak jumpa benda yang dicari tu.  Susah, tapi tak bermakna tak ada.  That one truly honest man.

 

 

 

 

 

Nota:

 

Rule 20. Advocate and solicitor to put before Court any relevant binding decision.

(a) An advocate and solicitor shall put before the Court any relevant, binding decision of which he is aware which is immediately in point, whether it be for or against his contention.

 

(b) This rule applies with particular importance in ex-parte proceedings.

 

 

Rule 21. Improper to misquote.

It is improper for an advocate and solicitor-

 

(a) knowingly to misquote the contents of a paper, the testimony of a witness, the argument of opposing counsel or the language of a decision or textbook; or

 

(b) with knowledge of its invalidity, to cite as authority a decision that has been overruled or a statute that has been repealed; or

 

(c) in argument, to assert as a fact that which has not been proved; or

 

(d) to mislead his opponent by concealing or withholding in his opening speech positions upon which he intends to rely.

 

Rule 17. No deception on Court.

An advocate and solicitor shall not practice any deception on the Court.

 

Rule 18. Advocate and solicitor to conduct with condour, courtesy and fairness.

The conduct of an advocate and solicitor before the Court and in relation to other advocates and solicitors shall be characterised by candour, courtesy and fairness.

Wednesday, December 20, 2023

My Ideal Office


I have my own room  at the office where I am currently practicing at but it is more of a storage area. I’d have my books and files in the room, my desktop computer if I need to do my work. Most of the administrative related work would be done there but not actual legal work. Most of the time I did my thinking and drafting and non-admin work elsewhere out of the office. But if I am particularly tired and still need access to my books, I would lug the books that I need from my room to one of the meeting room where there are windows. I would open one just to listen to the hustle and bustle of the road next to my building while I work and to let the cigarette smoke out. Occasionally I would peer out of them to the City outside. Watch people go about their business while I try to coax my brains into thinking. Them old grey matter would take a bit of time to warm up. When I really need to think without any interruptions, I would do my work out of the office entirely.

 

Before the Boycott and pre Covid I would work out of a Starbucks at the Curve. Sit at a secluded table with a hot chocolate and just get down to work for hours. I could work out of PJ’s historic A&W, a random mamak, a neighbourhood surau, Palace of Justice’s library, the Bar room at court complexes. Whether hours long sessions or in snatches. Anywhere but the office so long it has roof and power socket. I feel boxed in both physically and mentally at the office. I would be like a horse chomping at the bits. Restless for wide open space for me to stretch my legs. The ambient noise of an office is too distracting for me. The hum of the air conditioning,  phones ringing, the sound a photocopier, the clackety clack of the lawyer next door typing furiously on the keyboard, footsteps of people going to and fro outside my room. Too loud. Too distracting. 

 

Right now there are renovations going on in the unit above me beginning sometime before 5pm (sometimes earlier) until 10pm. With all the drilling and hammering of God knows what upstairs it is impossible to concentrate let alone hold a thought. I told myself at least I know it is actual proper human being making the noise and not some supernatural entity moving furniture around or pounding something in their mortar and pestle (probably the makings of some otherworldly sambal belacan).

 

For me there must be a right balance between ambient noise and silence to allow me to be productive with my work. Too silent and it is an invitation to nap. Too loud and it is a major distraction. I find that of all the places I have worked out of eateries would have the balance of noise and silence just right. Hence my preference for them.

What about professionalism you ask? What about it?  So long as I produce cause papers to be filed in court, could appear in court properly attired and prepared for my case why does it matter where I do my work? Most of lawyer’s work are done behind the scenes anyway. Away from the eyes of the clients. The oral submissions and trials are the only ones that the client would really see.  Besides, when I work outside of the office I don’t have a plaque on the table saying: Lawyer at work do not disturb. I don’t lug the whole case file around, I don’t have to. Everything is online. I want to do my work not make a Tik-Tok video out of it. All an observer would see would be me typing away on my laptop or staring into nothing ruminating on something. I would be one of many people typing something up on their laptops. Besides, if I am thirsty or particularly peckish the ane is but one wave away or the drinks counter would not be too far away. If confidentiality is a concern, I work at a cubicle or table that gives me optimum privacy or in a corner with my back to the wall and use my own internet connection. That ought to be enough to safeguard confidentiality.

 

When situation calls for it, usually when I am co-counseling for a friend, I would do my work at their office. A few years ago I was like doctors making house calls. I would rotate between two to three offices, all my friends who are in constant need of a counsel. Most of the time their offices would be a smoker friendly premise where one could and would light up at will. Just like the olden days I suppose. When hungry we ate. Take outs or at the restaurant nearby. When tired we would take a break. Breaks would consist of throwing ideas in between small talks while cigarette smoke would hang above and around us like thought bubbles. No such thing as being stock still when I work with friends. I would walk around, peer at windows, stare at walls. All to get the juices flowing and fingers typing later on. But whether it is out of office or at friend’s the idea remains the same. Variety, not familiarity that aids my thinking process.

 

That is the usual set up for me. It works for me but not my dream working environment I have in mind.

 

The ideal office for me would have two important characteristics. It would need to have wheels and ought to be self-propelled. A touring bus is for rock artistes and football clubs, a car is too small. The ideal size would be an MPV or a cargo van converted into a mobile office. A Ford or a Maxus side panel van would be best. Man, a Maxus side panel van is just sexy. In my eyes at least. Inside would be my office. Doesn’t have to be a moving castle. Just enough for me to function as human being and legal practitioner. There would be a foldable work station flush against one side and chair also foldable when not in use, a bookshelf overhead for all my reference books within easy reach, stationery and stamps, an All-in-One printer and copier/scanner running on batteries (Canon or HP. With HP’s ink based buggery, I lean more towards Canon). Change of clothes, toiletries, an extra suit or two. Mini fridge if you are pushing it and most importantly, hooks. One behind the driver’s seat and another on either rear corner of the van or MPV for me to sling my hammock whenever I need to sleep or need to power down for a while.

 

With wheels this mobile office would have the freedom to roam the courts and allow me work at will. Kuantan today, Klang tomorrow. Roam the courts from Perlis to Johor. Maybe stop by a river or lake for a picnic or a quiet hour or two of fishing or of just plain enjoying the scenery. Inhale the clear out of town air. Go to rest area or petrol station for calls (the other kind) and stuff. Just keep driving and attending court whenever and wherever. That kind of thing.

 

It is not an original idea I admit, but I warmed up to the idea after having to travel here and there back when my MOB gig was still going on and I discovered that I enjoyed the long drives. There is something about being in between places that appeals to me. I probably had a Mongol ancestor way back. The need to be constantly on the move is in my blood. What I lack in horses I made up with horsepower. No horse blood for me, sirap ais will slake my thirst. No yurt for me, a hammock will do just fine. So long as I am on the move (that is, if I am not stuck in a traffic jam) I am free. Being on the road means freedom and I value freedom above all else.

 

Maybe I’ll put idea to practice once my boys are finally done with school and awaiting tertiary stage and get them to drive me around for a while. It’ll be a road trip for the boys.

 

That’s my idea of an ideal office.

Tuesday, December 12, 2023

Who are you?

 

and what do you do is often the lead up question to the primary question that could be what is your name or anak/cucu sapa ni? Usually the latter is only asked during kenduris and family functions by a very senior member of the extended family. As it is, both are just the normal questions we ask to define and categorize people we meet into neat little boxes and we all just play along. One of those all too human trait I guess.

 

The lone wolf types are an anomaly. Not the general rule. We are meant to be social animals. Hence, the need to belong, the yearning to be part of a tribe to define yourself and your place in society. I guess we go through that at every stage of our lives. From kindergarten until the day we die. Oh the things we do to just to be a part of something bigger.

 

I was not spared the same. During secondary school it was the time of a heady mix of subcultures. Skaters, Hip-Hoppers, Punks and Skinheads. You name it. I was not into overly baggy pants and I was too lazy to find myself a decent skateboard and learn to skate. While I do enjoy a bit of Rancid (even today) the Mohawk hairdo was simply too outlandish for me and it would probably would give my dear old Grandmaster a heart attack. What I do have was a hand me down safety boots from me dad (Not Doc Marten), the desire to find a backbreaking work post SPM to be part of the working class and a cheap crew cut. The suspenders would only come years and years later.  But as it was then I became a half-baked skinhead, that was until I finished reading the Skinhead’s Bible. When I finally did, I could answer proudly answer yes to the question; kau ada knowledge tak?

 

Man, the things I do just to fit in. But I never did. I still stuck out like a sore thumb. I am the proverbial square peg. At least I think so. That is my lot in life. To be an outsider looking in. I don’t mind it anymore.

 

There is no reason for me to dwell on the gender aspect of identity. Suffice to say that I am comfortable with the gender I was born into. Somethings you have a say in, somethings you do not. I guess there is a reason for Men to have fragile things hanging down there. They are meant to be both a reminder of the heavy responsibilities of a Man and of how low a Man can go if he were to do his thinking with them. To be rid of them for whatever reason or to deny their existence is to reject those responsibilities the universe has entrusted to you. But if that defines you, hey. You go, you.

  

Call it a mother’s foresight or what you will but it was my mother, not me who started me on my path towards the Law. ‘’Suka membaca kan? Pi buat Law’’ she more or less said a long time ago. So I went to law school and graduated. With hopes of at most being a drafter at the Attorney General Chambers dotting the I’s and crossing the T’s of statutes. A safe role. Punch in, do my job, punch out. Repeat until retirement, or so I thought at that time. If left to myself I would rather be a brown Indiana Jones, robbing tombs and booby trapped caves for museums. Either that or do something to do with books or writing. I can be accused of lacking in ambition. I don’t mind. I’d rather be left alone in my corner of the world to do what I like to do. Then I found general litigation.


I began my first year of practice doing debt recovery work. Attending court to obtain JID’s and such at court before E-Review was implemented. All mundane work. Contested debt recovery files were rare. Even when I was a pupil my pupil master was a practitioner in the banking and debt recovery section. I used to be asked to serve Notice of Demands and take pictures of the property I had served the NOD at, for Feasibility Studies purposes I was told. After office hours I would be going through drafts of Proclamation of Sale all the while the General Litigation team would have their brain storming session in my De Jure Master’s room just across from my cubicle. I remembered thinking; that looks fun. It is.

 

Then, when I was called to the Bar and joined my current firm a walk-in client related to the boss came in asking for someone to represent him to recover some payments and if necessary, to fight in the courts for it over some storyboards and ideas for a TV show. Being a debt recovery and conveyancing firm, nobody had the time to entertain a potential general litigation file, except for the new guy with no portfolio to manage (me). With permission from my Boss, I went in, researched the hell out of it, issued an NoD and negotiated a settlement in favour of the client. Client left a happy man, bought me fancy dinner but at the end of the negotiation when the Settlement Agreement was inked, that was my Eureka moment. I went: Syiok jugak General Lit ni. I never looked back ever since.

 

I am in my tenth year of practicing the arcane arts of lawyering this year and yet still I dare not associate myself with the title lawyer (yes, this again) or litigator. I am competent brawler in court but to call myself a lawyer or litigator, maybe not yet. In my mind I have a long way to go before I can earn the title litigator.

 

I have a practicing certificate (for this year), I dabble in legal disputes in the courts, attend the Annual General Meeting of the Malaysian Bar whenever I can remember it but still I dare not call myself a lawyer. I dare not give a judge a dressing down on social media. I dare not call myself a lawyer online. For me the exalted title of lawyer meant the utmost dedication to the practice of the Law, to have the willingness to give all that you have in service of the Law, to have your every act and every word uttered in line with that end. Me? I have not reached that stage yet. Don’t know when or if I ever will. I am a practitioner of the Law but still I am an outsider looking in and that is fine.

 

Not to say that I am not dedicated to improve myself in my craft. I take every case that came my way seriously, attend to any prospective client the best I can even if I think theirs is a no-hope case (especially when it is a no-hope case. A lost cause are the only ones worth fighting for) while trying to fulfill the need for money. Maybe it is crass to talk about practicing Law and money in the same sentence but the reality is every law firm is a business and every lawyer provides a paid service unless stated otherwise. A business with higher ethical standard but a business nonetheless. Sometimes I wonder how Big Firms do it, that balancing act. No, I lie. I wonder it all the time.

 

In a conversation with a friend and fellow practitioner some time back about the nature of legal practice he said that in the olden days in merry olde England most legal practitioners came from the nobility stock. That might be the reason for calling the Law a noble profession. It means just that, a profession for the nobility whose lands and possessions would allow him to practice the Law free from worries of bills to pay and creditors to appease. Allowing him to fully immerse himself in the Law and to put the interest of the Client and not his own interest first. It’s easy if you are a nobleman I think. It is all that or the idea that the practice of Law is for the nobility might just be a harmless fib from that said friend. A consolation to our precarious existence as small time nobodies. But whatever it is, in a land of Datuks aplenty it does not matter in the end if you bleed blue or red or fluorescent green, we all have bills to pay. Hell, you might have to pay for your Datukship. It is the question of what you are willing to do to pay those bills. Will you cross that line between putting your interest before your client’s? Move the line a few feet? Or pretend the line does not exist?

 

In an ideal world where money and time is no object I would do cases for the heck of it, buy and read the whole lot of law books and attend as many trainings and courses as I can cram and consult as many senior practitioners that I can consult, all to improve my practice and myself, like a hypothetical noble. Alas, I am but a commoner and I do not live in an ideal world. The world I am in right now revolves around bills and debts to be paid and a little family all of which are clamoring for my attention and time is ever fleeting. So to hold myself to the likes of lawyers who lives on principle (I still need my nasik) and have the Law seeping out of their pores, is simply a big ask. There is always a price to pay. I have heard stories of lawyers coming home to an empty house, a shattered marriage, a family in turmoil, abuse substances. That is not a price I am willing to pay. I do however try my best to live up to the ideals of the Bar, to emulate the ones I look up to and adopt their convictions as mine whenever I can. I fail most of the time but not for lack of trying.

 

I once told my wife that she has my permission to slap me with her full might should I ever forget that I am a father to a two boys and a husband to a wife because when I first realized how much I enjoyed doing contested matters I know that work and life balance will be out of whack most of the time and I will need a constant reminder. A mighty slap will do. My wife and not the Law, is the pillar of my practice. Without my wife, I would not have the opportunity to hunt for opportunities to perform in court, to fight a fair and honest fight. Without my wife and her understanding and patient nature, I could have not done what I have done so far in my practice. I owe it to my wife and kids to be the best at what I do. It is my two boys and not the Law that kept me on the straight and narrow path (may it be so for ever). I know that despite their age, they know and they listen and they see every single thing that I say and do. They inspire me to be the best that I can be as a father, a husband and a lawyer and above all to be accountable for my actions, to extend compassion and understanding to my fellow man (and woman) so that maybe in the future they can say: if Abah can do it so can we.

I hope.

 

There is a scene in Fight Club that I really love. Tyler Durden and the unnamed narrator had a Chinese cashier named Raymond K. Hassel pulled out of the convenience store into the parking lot where he was questioned at gunpoint of what he wanted to be. In the end Raymond told Tyler and the unnamed narrator that he planned to be a veterinarian but stopped halfway because ‘It was too hard’’. With the gun pointed to his head, he had a promise extracted out of him that he will resume his studies to be a veterinarian. I like the scene because it was a crude reminder to us that we need that metaphorical gun pointed to our head to achieve or do what truly resonates with our soul. That yearning that kept us awake late at night. That thing that forms our identity. Screw all those excuses. The practice of Law should not be the end all and be all of you. Practitioner ought to be able to at least dual wield, maybe more disciplines apart from the Law, especially one or two or more that really calls to you. Peter the Great of Russia mastered 15 manual professions from blacksmithing, carpentry to stonemasonry. Okay, fine. He might be an absolute ruler with servants at his beck and call but you get the idea. Leonardo Da Vinci, that natural son of a notary. No noble bloodline, not a Tsar. Now that is another example of multidisciplinary individual. A lot of the big names in the Islamic Golden age have more than one expertise. The point is, the Law maybe a jealous mistress but I’d like to believe there are room in a practitioner’s life for a few more. Maybe a lawyer, silambam master and pro ballroom dancer combo. Or a lawyer, the next Man Kidal and a judo master. Something like that. Even when I was in the volunteer copper corp we were told that officers are expected to be an accomplished public speaker, a golfer and fully capable of belting out soulful tunes. I am working on the first two but the last one is beyond me.

 

Fahri once told me that there was one thinker (I forgot his name, I wrote it down somewhere) who said that there are no solutions to a problem, only trade offs. The said thinker was speaking about the unintended consequence of affirmative action for the African American in the US as I recall it. Be that as it may, the quote was a profound one and true on so many levels. It got me thinking in terms the identity we have constructed for ourselves. What we hold dear, our principles forms a bulk of our identity.

 

No person ever woke up one morning and decided to cast his lot with the Devil. That much is obvious. The fall from grace is never instantaneous. It is more like a gentle slide. In this age of blinding speed communication and hasty decisions, bills and debts past due, it is easy to make an exception. Cut a corner. Pad that bill, increase the disbursement, make something up ‘’Just this time. No one will know (But we will)’’ or ‘’Make a business decision’’ we tell ourselves. Before we know it exceptions became the norm, the general rule. What then remains of our principles? What is then left of our identity?

 

Everyday I have to remind myself that I am not how much money I have in my bank account, not my beat up car that I drive, the contents of my wallet or my beloved khakis. I am the sum of choices that I make every single day. It is not easy to stay the course, to stay you in this confused, hyper capitalistic world. The temptation to keep your head down, follow the herd and float in the calm waters of mundanity is all too powerful. Same goes to the temptation to take the easy way out of things, justify it all you want. What is wrong is wrong. Life is hard and it is not fair but that is not a good reason to be unfair to others and to yourself.  Face that 100 foot wave in your rickety old boat, spank the Devil and tell ‘im to get thee behind me. Be you, stay you come what may. Archimedes once said with a good fulcrum and a long lever, one can move the world. A good sense of who you are as a person is the fulcrum, our patience the lever. Apply that and we can truly move the world.